If you could turn back time to relive a certain part of your life, would you do it?
I’m under the impression that most people, when asked, do have a particular time that they’d like to return to. More often than not the time of choice seems to be the childhood years where nap time, play time and unwanted baths were their most immediate worries. To be honest, I can’t seem to find a satisfying answer when posed with this question.
Each phase of life seems to have its undeniably awkward and awful memories, which I actually see as an inevitable part of life. If I were to turn back time, I would either have to relive these moments or would end up trying to avoid them altogether. Of course I wouldn’t want to relive them (such as being pooped on forehead by a pigeon at school when I was five years old), but erasing them altogether isn’t necessarily helpful.
The most succinct thing I could think of in response to the opening question, is that I think I’m constantly trying to recapture a feeling where everything in my life fits together in its many complicated ways. This tends to occur during already over sentimentalised phases, such as my 8th, 15th, 19th, and 21st birthdays. It can also be triggered by something that seems quite minor, like meeting someone for the first time or suddenly realising something new about myself. These days or phases aren’t perfect, but they certainly captured what was good (and in some cases, also slightly bad) about my life at the time. They’re memorable moments in time, with the understanding that even by going back to the same place with the same people, it wouldn’t be the same. The most notable thing about this feeling is that it’s fleeting; you can only stop to analyse it briefly and then it’s gone. I guess this kind of answer doesn’t particularly count though, since I don’t actually want to relive these moments but rather create new ones that relive a similar feeling.
If I were to be geeky about it, these are almost like “save points” in my life. Except I don’t have the option to reload. If I did, and I accidentally died now, I would have to reload from last Saturday. As nice as Sundays can be, I wouldn’t want to replay Monday…
This is in response to the writing prompt at: https://dailypost.wordpress.com/2014/04/01/prompt-turn-back-time/